its not easy to be so ignorance when there are some memories left that cant be vanish. ignorance does not suits me at all. i failed to do so.yeah, i may look so tough n strong but do remember, im not a super duper auto heart fixer! i do takes time. yeah, its so absurd to fall easily. but thats we called nature.feelings are so unpredictable. another thing bothering is habits of being so caring to another that i should not be so. this is obvious that ignorance does not suits me at all! im tryng my best, but what goes around comes around. i didnt ask for this at all. it came, n it goes. but, the effects are so erghhhh. its so easy to talk but hard to do. it just like hell.yeah.this is not desperate, but this is so annoying. craving for someone right. no more the wrong ones. no more broken heart. no more mistakes. feeling so sad when there is no answer for all the question. when tehre is an answer, its wrong. hoping is killing as well. yeah, it is. feelings are subjects that are soooo arghhh. no word to describe. when we did certain decision without hearts permission n blessings, we do rethink. yeah..feel so fish at the moment.sekian.